Reflections

Shackelford Funeral Directors • May 5, 2016

Warning. I am about to make a tremendous understatement.

Holidays are tough.

There. I said it.  Holidays are hard when grief gets in the way.  Maybe not every holiday.  Maybe not Halloween or St. Patrick’s Day so much.  But those holidays that center around family—like Christmas and Thanksgiving—and those that focus on one particular person—say, like Mother’s Day or Father’s Day—those are difficult to celebrate when someone special is missing.

Mother’s Day is just around the corner and, like most of the rest of the world, I have a mother. She’s just not here.  If I want to visit her, I won’t be going to her home or some nursing home or assisted living facility.  I can forget about calling her.  We disconnected my parents’ home phone years ago . . . and she was never very good with a cell phone . . . not that it would matter anymore.  And if I want to send her flowers they’ll have to go to the cemetery instead of some residential address.

It’s hard to buy a Mother’s Day card for my mother-in-law, not because of anything she’s done. She’s a lovely person who accepted me as her own from the very beginning and has always treated me with love and respect.  It’s just that all those cards I see remind me of the days when two were purchased instead of one, and as I read them searching for just the right message, I find those I would have bought for my mother . . . if the need was still there.

And you know what? It’s all right to be sad, it’s all right to miss her even though the first of this month marked eight years since she died.  I know people whose mothers died decades ago and they still miss them, still wish they could ask their advice about a particular problem or just stop by to visit or watch them watch their grandchildren or great-grandchildren and see their eyes light up with pure joy.

My grandchildren will never know my mother; she died before they ever entered this world. But I can still show them her picture.  I can still tell them who she was and how much she would have loved them and how much she looked forward to their arrival on this earth.  Because you see, as long as I’m alive—and as long as my children live—there will always be a part of her within us.  And that’s something I want to share just as long as I can.  She is directly responsible for at least half the person I am today, and even though she is no longer physically here, that’s a contribution I choose to honor, especially on a day set aside for that very purpose.

 

By Lisa Thomas August 20, 2025
Carl Jeter had walked out on the deck of his house to survey the flood waters of the Guadalupe River—and to be certain the level was no longer rising.
By Lisa Thomas August 13, 2025
It was bedtime in the Guinn household and six-year-old Malcolm had decided tonight was the night to declare his independence.
By Lisa Thomas August 6, 2025
They had been married almost 25 years when Death suddenly took him. Twenty-five years of traveling around the country with his work. Twenty-five years of adventures and building their family and finally settling into a place they believed they could call their forever home.
By Lisa Thomas July 30, 2025
It was quietly hiding in the chaos that was once a well-organized, barn-shaped workshop/storage building, one now filled with all the things no one needed but with which they couldn’t bring themselves to part.
By Lisa Thomas July 23, 2025
Do you remember when new vehicles didn’t come with on-board navigation systems and if you wanted one you had to buy something like a Garmin or a Magellan or some other brand that would talk you through your trip?
By Lisa Thomas July 16, 2025
Recently I found myself playing a rousing game of “Chutes and Ladders” with my grandson and his mom (my daughter)—a game I soon realized I was destined to lose.
By Lisa Thomas July 10, 2025
Facebook is like the double-edged sword of social media. On the one hand, it can be the spreader of good news . . . But it also serves as the bearer of all that is bad.
By Lisa Thomas July 2, 2025
I don’t actually know how Facebook decides what I like or what topics might be of interest. It’s understood there is some mysterious algorithm quietly running in the background . . .
By Lisa Thomas June 25, 2025
With her head bent low and her eyes laser-focused on the sidewalk before her, she slowly made her way around the park. Step by step, one foot in front of the other.
By Lisa Thomas June 18, 2025
It was dark outside when the phone rang; a glance at the clock revealed the day was still in its infancy, which explained why the funeral director’s brain did not want to engage. Years of experience prevailed however, and he answered the call, finding on the other end of the line a hospice nurse requesting their services for a death that had occurred in a home.